Hate That I Love You

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That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeahah)
And I can't stand ya
Almost everything you do
Makes me wanna smile
Even I like you for a while (no... Oh...)

But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss... And fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoah...)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh...)

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh

Said that it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why (why...)
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah...)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

Yeaahhh... Oohh...

As much I love you (as much as I need you oh...)
As much as I need you (oooh... As so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh...)
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love
You soooooooo!

And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need ya (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no...)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so... Soo...

I live to organized things around me!

who doesn't love to organize? I am someone who love to arrange my things.. I need to see something clean and neat too especially when I came back from work. I have this little hobby since 3 months ago which is to label my stuff and cabinets at home. I could go crazy if I found out my things are not at the right place.. miahahaha... I got those tidy up things neatly from pictures and blogs! Nowday, I really rely on my blogs to get some awesome ideas to create something new. I followed a lot of blogs about organizing, DYI thing also decorating lately but my most favourite blog is by "IHeart Organizing".. Their blog helps me alot! Thank you so much IHeart Organizing.. You made my day! I just love their creativity and cool ideas yet simple.. Their DYI ideas are so easy to do... as easy as 1..2..3.. ^_^ If you guys are interested to start organized your things, you can follow IHeart Organizing blog.. Click here http://iheartorganizing.blogspot.com ... Will share some of my organizing ideas someday.. Let us start organize guys!!

For you baby girl..

went to Kuching to attend course conducted by KEMAS. The course took about 1 week to be complete. It was an opportunity for me to jalan-jalan cuci mata... nehehehe... My last visit to Kuching was somewhere in 2008 it was after I graduated in UiTM.. Kuching changed a lot!! How much I miss you Kuching City.. awwhhh! Went to my favourite place to dine.. Sharing Planet, Al Fresco, Porkies, Kedai Mee Sapi Haji Salleh, Attap Corner.. miss those food for so long! my last night in Kuching was awesome because it was Halloween Night.. Went to some places to enjoy my night life too and meet new people.. Next morning before my flight I went to the mall where I used to hangout during Uni days.. heheee.. Managed to grab something for my babu girl.. I was looking for gold tutu actually but can't find any.. so I just bought what I saw suits my baby girl.. heee... will try to find the gold tutu again during my next visit somewhere in the end of November.. So guys, I will be in Kuching at the end of November..

The boots!

Oh well... I fell in love with boots lately.. Yes! some people somehow think boots are not made for the ladies.. if you think so.. go and get some latest fashion sources guys!!! Flip and jump into the fashion corner... dude... Wearing boots are no more weird nowdays.. It is one kind of fashion.. do not call ladies wearing boots lame or outdated because you are the one that is not updated.. Go refresh you fashion sense.. mihmihmih.. So over obsessed with boots and planning to buy another latest one from Dr. Martens..awwwhhhh... lovinggg it! Okeh.. sharing with you some picture of my boots... awhhhh...

Mommy went travelling...

26 Oktober 2014... This mommy have to fly to Kuching in order to attend  some courses.. The worst feeling ever when I have to leave my precious baby girl when she is not in a good health.. The night before she had fever and early this morning she got extra bad day when Mr. Flu strikes..As a mommy, I could not bear looking at her dealing with that bad fever and flu.. She could not even sleep well due to her blocked nose.. Mommy will miss you a lot baby girl.. You are mommy and daddy little sunshine...Mommy pray that you will be heal in Jesus name.. God will grant you a fast recovery too.. Mommy and daddy love you so much! You are one kind of blessing that God had gave us.. See you soon little princess.. be strong syg mommy! Here are some photos that i manage to capture before 
I went to the airport..I love her so much
!! meet my girl
Hosanna Joy 
Julan

Kesibukan beberapa hari...

Sebab sangat penat siapkan segala file2 dan rekod2 maka jari ini amat malas untuk menaip.... seriousss...kami dah tahap penat dan lapar ni.. sampai terabai waktu makan kami gara2 sibuk menjalankan tanggungjawab.. Antara task yang kami kena siapkan ialah...
1. Rekod MBK
2. Rekod perbelanjaan
3. Rekod GPK
4. Enrolment kanak2 2015
5. Rekod sumbangan
6. Rekod kewangaan

okehh... biar gambar jadi saksi..heee....

The magic light...

Lama sudah I usha2 lampu kaler-kaler tau... Reason usha pun sebab nak bagi baby girl tengok and enjoy those colorful lights..Lepas beli bukan baby girl saja yang syok.. dengan mak baby girl sekali rasa best..hehehe.. I bought it at rm12.00 sahaja.. very Cheap kan! Finally jumpa juga yang murah gitew... Since I ada magic lamp ni, nak bagi baby I tido paling the kacang! heee.. senang..maybe dia seronok and layap tengok lights yang colorful bergerak-gerak kan sampai tertidu... haaaa... memudahkan tugas I menidurkan si kecik I ni.. Baby I kalau malam memang I tak bagi la tidur dalam buaian, I biar dia lelap sendiri bergolek-golek atas tilam sampai tertidur.. kadang-kadang ambik masa juga tau but sejak ada lamp ni 15 minit dia senyum2 tengok lampu kaler then mula golong2 rambut.. the next time kita tengok dah terlelap.. haaa... best!! Okeh.. tak nak u ols cakap I tipu ada lampu glam ni jadi I nak bagi bukti video..hehe..tadaaaa....

Bekalan or no bekalan?

Terbaca post status former lecturer saya dalam 1 week ago tentang kesedaran membawa bekal di tempat Sir saya menetap sekarang. Bekalan or istilah tempat saya ialah "TAPAU".. haaaa... Soalan saya ialah... Setuju atau tidak jika anda di sarankan untuk membawa bekalan ke tempat keja atau pi mana-mana lerr... ??? asalkan "membawa bekal".. Percaya atau tidak, baaanyak kebaikan membawa bekal ni tau.. Even sqya sendiri amalkan membawa bekalan bila ke tempat kerja atau travelling.. Yes! I prepare my own meal owkehh... buang masa? takda masa? For me la kan, takda alasan kalau hati nak.. haaaa...mihmihmihh... jangan marah pulak sebab saya cantaskan.. serious.. sape suroh prepare benda yang susah? aaaa... kann... let me share menu2 yang selalu saya jadikan bekal bila pergi kerja sepanjang 5 hari..
1. Nasi putih + Omelatte with spinach and diced tomatoes.. haaa... telur je kak...
2. Nasi goreng + vege...
3. Nasi putih + Mixed vege / chicken stew2..ahaa..lapar la pulak kannn...maigad!
4. Bread with egg and mayo / Bread with spicy tuna.. tuna tu beli je kak! tak suruh pun pegi laut tangkap.. ngeheheheh...
5.  Steam chicken breast or Tenggiri with brocolli and tomatoes..

now you see.. susah ke? tak kann..haa... lagi senang kalau u ols ada steamer kat rumah.. perghhh... masuk semua bahan2 dlm container then masuk dalam steamer saje kan.. pastu pegi la mandi sementara tunggu your tapau siap..  oh ya, kalau I ols kan.. pergi travelling pun macam balik kampung kan saya memang akan prepare something untuk kunyah2 sepanjang perjalanan.. kenapa kena tapau? ahaaa.... scroll down..baca sama2 my reason untuk menapau..
1. Sihat sebab boleh ready snack yang elok.. contoh
2. Jimat masa.. jimat duit.. why? sebab tak payah la nak singgah RnR or singgah then tunggu pulak makanan yang kena order kan.. kalau pack dari rumah, mana2 boleh stop bila lapar.. haaa... jimat duit.. sangat2 jimat hokeyhh... haaa... cuba bandingkan harga membeli kat RnR dan hasil bawa makanan sendiri dari rumah.. calculate la sendiri...aaaa...
3. Selamat... haa.. sangat2 lah selamat kan.. dari segi kebersihan.. Air tangan sendiri yang prepare kan.. kalau orang lain prepare nampak ke macam mana mereka prepare makanan tu? Nak bercuti..rehat RNR.. tup2 dapat sakit perut yang durjana pulak.. seronok ke tak? memang tak la kan... aaaa...

Untuk travelling pun packed food sonang.. macam kaciang saja.. yang ni list saya la yer.. lemme share with you ols...
yang ni untuk budak2..
1. Kismis
2. Fruits!! simple and healthy kan..
3. cornflakes
4. cookies...
5. Vege.. brocolli with mayo dip.. carrot stick..
6. main meal.. Ayam kicap with rice, ayam isi ayam or fish fillet goreng..mashed potato, ubi or keladi rebus, Sandwich,  Mini burger...  eee...banyak lagi la.. susah kerr? Kalau ready budak2 punya.. jangan lupa napkin, wet tissue, and makanan tolong buat bite size..senang anak2 makan.. takde la makanan terbang melayang dalam kereta kan.. haaaa...
kalau untuk dewasa.. coffee boleh bancuh sendiri kan..tak minum coffee buat la teh.. aaaa... senang tu.. simpan dalam termos supaya kekal panas.. makanan.. as usual, nasi dengan 1 lauk pun cukup dah, sekadar alas perut.. buah-buahan.. goreng la nugget or sausage kan.. tak susah pun nak pack barang2 ni.. FYI, i am not a big fan of junkies.. no..no..no keropok2 or jajan2...especially untuk anak.. mak tak suka anak kecik2 dah makan keropok2.. gula2.. no!! oh yerr.. kalau macam saya selalunya prefer bekalan yang tak berkuah sebab senang simpan satu hal.. next pulak takde la kes tumpah terabur kan.. haaa... lagi satu, mak cik kiah oii.. ko jaaangan bawak belacan atau petai pulak.. semerbak bau korang sefamily masa tiba kat destinasi.. lagi teruk kalau ada yang muka biru sesak napas sebab tak tahan bau petai.. mihmihmih.. agak2 kak, kalau semua ok dengan benda bau2 ni no problem la kan.. ini sekadar kongsi pendapat je la.. terpulang u ols menilai yer.. I ols suka membekal.. seriously seeenang kerja, lagi2 yang ada baby kecik..haaa.. kut2 singgah masa baby tidoq lagi.. don't tell me that you are going to leave your baby alone and sleeping in the car while you and the others are going out to have your meal.. hurmmm... a big no! jaangan buat anak macam tu yer... okeh.. i ols nak rehat, baru sampai dari kampung ni terus berkemas cuci2 barang.. So, do tell me korang prefer bekal or not to bekal?

Another additional member in the clan!

Owkiee... Sharing good news again..mihmihmih... My cousin Cory selamat melahirkan one cute adorable little prince today! yippieduuu!! Yes..another prince in Avit's clan again.. ngahaha.. but still..populasi di monopoli oleh the Hawas... awwhhh! Go girl!! Both parent decided to name him as "Melvin"... yeayy!! Berat juga la si baby ni.. 3.3kg... yawtchhhh... mine was 2.3kg.. jauh nya beza!!! Okeh.. enough blablabing.. Say hye to baby Melvin pleaseee.... :)

Dan kamu.. Untuk kamu...

Kelu dan bisu... yang pasti aku rindu!
waktu untuk kau dan aku hanya itu..
kenapa kita persiakan? kenapa kita biarkan?
Usaha aku tapi kamu?
Mungkin kamu takut..
Atau seperti aku.. punya rasa malu...
Cuma aku mahu kamu tau..
Tentang aku yang akan sentiasa ingat kamu..
Semoga bahagia kamu disana..
Mungkin aku memang tetamu seketika dihati kamu..
Biar saja aku disini..
Ditemani rasa rindu yang kini semakin menyepi dan mati..

Kisah Cinta Sampai Mati...

Ini kami...
Kami yang tersisip oleh cinta kami,
Cinta yang dulunya retak..
Yang dulu nya mati pada kami..
Tapi itu pada mata..telinga..fikiran kami..
Bukan kata hati kami!
Ego kami, pemusnah kisah sejati kami..
Hati tidak menipu..
Hati kami masih bersama disitu..
Tidak akan dapat kami lukiskan..
Tidak terlakarkan lakaran perasaan kami..
Rindu kami, sayang kami..
Masih tersisa seperti hadirnya pada awal waktu..
Jika mampu kami jadikan arca perasaan kami ini,
Kami yakin.. pasti teguh.. pasti sempurna dirinya,
Namun perit untuk melalui kenyataan kini,
Walau masih ada cinta,
Kami tetap tidak bersatu..
Cuma kami yang tahu..
Kami mahu, tapi kami terus kelu..
Ini kisah cinta kami,
Cinta mati yang terus terkubur mati.. 

By, FL

Meet my little diva!

Name : Hosanna Joy Julan Binti Sophian
D.O.B : 02 December 2013

Hye yolls!!! Sudah saya janjikan sebelum ini untuk perkenalkan puteri sulung kami.. Hoh.. seperti tertera di atas.. antara detail utama yang saya boleh share la..mana tau boleh claim birthday present from pembaca2 lepas ni kan....heheh..kerlasss gitewww! Lahirnya puteri kami ini pada minggu ke 36 selepas saya mengalami light bleeding..  As you ols tau.. sepanjang pregnancy saya banyakkkk sangat mengalami masalah2 kesihatan antara dia ialah kencing manis..BP tinggi dan Albumin tinggi.. tak tau apa itu? Google la... semuanya di hujung jari sajer..haaa... Tapi walaupun banyak masalah kesihatan saya tetap gigih berjalan2 sepanjang boyot.. tak penat.. seronok ada la... lagi satu tabiat sepanjang preggy.. Kaki mengandam diri sendiri... swmua nak cantik u olsss... sblm preggy mak ni tak kuasa la nak bermascara eyeshadow bagai tau..tapi masa bunting i say u... huhu... 1 jam depan cermin bersiap! hambek kaww...hohoho...pembawaan anak perempuan kot.. lagi satu.. sangat rajinnn masuk dapur walaupun tak reti masak.. ngahhahah...konfiden penting hokeh! sedap tak sedap... nasib la... :p ok lah... panjang sangat cerita mak.. bila nak view gambar2 puteri kan...hehe.. apapon.. untuk pembaca2 yang tengah preggy sekarang mak cuma pesan 1 saje.. "enjoy your percnency.." serious.. lepas baby keluar nanti u ols akan rindu all those excited feelings nak pergi scan every months.. rindu rasa excited nak tgk gender baby.. excited cari n beli barang baby... perasaan tak sabar nak tengok baby keluar tu tak yah cerita.. kalau boleh sepanjang proses melahirkan or untuk yang c-sec macam saya ni tak nak pejam mata sebab nak tengok live wajah kesayangan yang sudah 9 bulan menghuni rahim anda... haaa... enjoy la k..have fun.. jaga pemakanan... be prepared dari segi fizikal.. mental dan emosi... macam saya preggy emosi sangat lah over... "drama queen" sangat... orites... scroll la ke bawah pulak.. kita view sket wajah kesayangan kami suami isteri...hehehe...